I keep looking at myself in the mirror
Hoping it will change
And I keep wishing for a brand-new body
That I didn't have to blame
I'm seeing every flaw like a failure
I'm using every cure like a savior
Like tryna build a church out of all my hurt
When it really needs grace

I gave all my time to nothing
I focusedon who I was not who I'm becoming
My fears, they took up space
My eyes couldn't look away
I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

Half a bottle of red just before bed
Is the only way I dream
Before I rеally wake up
The first thing I touch is a button on a screen
I'm not guilty of leaving, not sticking around
I'm guilty of staying and just chеcking out
Yeah, I kept my head down and really missed out
On what's in front of me 'Cause I gave all my time to nothing
I focused on who I was, not who I'm becoming
My fears, they took up space
My eyes couldn't look away
I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

Why do the lies feel like the truth?
Why do I do the things I do?
Why do I fight so hard to keep my heart empty?

'Cause I gave so much time to nothing
I focused on who I was, not who I'm becoming
My fears, they took up space
My eyes couldn't look away
I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

I didn't even realize
I didn't even realize
I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate
Didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate

Didn't even realize, no
Didn't even realize, didn't know